Dear Future Baby,
I have a doctor's appointment today and I can't sleep. It's 8:30 AM, but I've been up since 6:30. I
took a shower and had a face mask. I feel okay. I think. I'm just worried I guess. I don't know why I'm worried, but I am.
I've been having some trouble sleeping lately. I mean, I fall asleep fine, but then I dream. I'm not used to dreaming. I know we dream in some form all the time, but I never used to remember my dreams and now I do. They're vivid dreams too. And, for me at least, when I dream, it doesn't feel like sleep, it feels like work. Then, my back starts to hurt. A combination of scoliosis and the arthritis I'm assuming. I think I'm just here to complain today. My costochondritis is acting up, so that's something I need to bring up today. I'm also just SO constipated. I know, TMI, but it's the truth and the fiber gummies I'm taking give me gas, so there 'ya go.
My moods are also everywhere. I'm home alone most of the day, so your dad doesn't normally see this. They change so quickly. It's not a problem most of the time, but sometimes the littlest things annoy me like Peanut and Belle's nails clicking on the wood floor or the stupid bird that won't stop chirping right now. Ugh.
Most of the time with these letters, I try to have some message to give you and I guess, here it is. It's okay to complain sometimes, but with that don't forget all the ways you are SO lucky and blessed.
Gosh, a mere 5 months ago, I was convinced that I couldn't get pregnant, but here we are. I tend to look at the good side of things. Yes, I can get down or just feel like life isn't going the way I want it to, but in the end of it all I remember all the ways I have it good. I went to college, I have a job that I absolutely love, I have friends who love me, I have a wonderful husband, I have a great house, and two dogs that love me a whole bunch. I have a mom that supports me, brothers and sisters who love me. I have a whole lot to be thankful for.
So yes, I can complain about how uncomfortable I am, or that I haven't pooped in 3 days. But through all of it, I have to remember all the good stuff.
In your life, they'll be heartache and pain (Thank you Foreigner for the wisdom), but I swear, you'll have more moments to be thankful for. Don't let the bad stuff overshadow all the good you have in your life.
We love you very much.
Love, Mom
I have a doctor's appointment today and I can't sleep. It's 8:30 AM, but I've been up since 6:30. I
took a shower and had a face mask. I feel okay. I think. I'm just worried I guess. I don't know why I'm worried, but I am.
I've been having some trouble sleeping lately. I mean, I fall asleep fine, but then I dream. I'm not used to dreaming. I know we dream in some form all the time, but I never used to remember my dreams and now I do. They're vivid dreams too. And, for me at least, when I dream, it doesn't feel like sleep, it feels like work. Then, my back starts to hurt. A combination of scoliosis and the arthritis I'm assuming. I think I'm just here to complain today. My costochondritis is acting up, so that's something I need to bring up today. I'm also just SO constipated. I know, TMI, but it's the truth and the fiber gummies I'm taking give me gas, so there 'ya go.
My moods are also everywhere. I'm home alone most of the day, so your dad doesn't normally see this. They change so quickly. It's not a problem most of the time, but sometimes the littlest things annoy me like Peanut and Belle's nails clicking on the wood floor or the stupid bird that won't stop chirping right now. Ugh.
Most of the time with these letters, I try to have some message to give you and I guess, here it is. It's okay to complain sometimes, but with that don't forget all the ways you are SO lucky and blessed.
Gosh, a mere 5 months ago, I was convinced that I couldn't get pregnant, but here we are. I tend to look at the good side of things. Yes, I can get down or just feel like life isn't going the way I want it to, but in the end of it all I remember all the ways I have it good. I went to college, I have a job that I absolutely love, I have friends who love me, I have a wonderful husband, I have a great house, and two dogs that love me a whole bunch. I have a mom that supports me, brothers and sisters who love me. I have a whole lot to be thankful for.
So yes, I can complain about how uncomfortable I am, or that I haven't pooped in 3 days. But through all of it, I have to remember all the good stuff.
In your life, they'll be heartache and pain (Thank you Foreigner for the wisdom), but I swear, you'll have more moments to be thankful for. Don't let the bad stuff overshadow all the good you have in your life.
We love you very much.
Love, Mom