Dear future baby,
I just found out about postpartum flare up. That sounds scary as shit. Like, after you come to this world, my psoriasis could flare up really bad. And treatments are limited because I will be breast feeding. Also vaginal delivery is not recommended for women that have genital psoriasis (which I do). So, even though I wanted to have a vaginal birth, that might not be an option for us either.
I am trying to get healthy for us. I weighed myself yesterday. The scale says I lost 10 pounds, I think it needs to be re-calibrated. I want you to know that weight, looks, aren’t important. To be healthy is important. To love yourself is important. Fat is not a bad word. And fat is not the worst thing a person can be. A person can be fat and healthy, fat and happy. I am fat and happy.
Your dad and I want us (me and you) to be healthy. He doesn’t want to lose either one of us during labor because we weren’t healthy. He couldn’t deal with that. So, for us, I am being healthy. But make no mistake, I still eat food I love. I allow myself to have sweets if I want. Weight loss is a slow journey. And diet is not something you go on until you lose the weight. Diet is a life style.
We love you.
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